Something More........

I created this blog hoping it would help me to write more and uncover more of who i am. The year is three months to being over and i am just now making my first post..hahaha.. funny! So!.. i need to at least finish what i wanted to start...maybe it will grow into something more. I also was inspired by two friends that dare to try something new even when it scares them and to walk thier faith out. It encouraged me to post some of my thoughts and musings no matter what i feel about them...(wanting to edit myself a whole lot)...but i'm refusing to do that hoping beauty will come out of it.

This year has been a year of learning how to walk in status quo where as much as you want circumstances to change they remain the same. While you watch everyone's life around you change and grow in different directions...it's hard. Hard to not be bitter..hard to not think you've been forgotten..hard to love others, hard to give, and hard to serve others. So i guess this blog will help me to examine myself and share that with others...cause just maybe you have felt this way at some point in your life and then we can build our hope and faith together.

When I first wrote this title...i thought why did i write that? how is my life beautiful and what do I have possibly to say about that??? Then i was thinking of the break down of beautiful....beauty and full... God has given me beauty..(i may not see it all the time)....and he has made my life full of it. And yours too!

A poem for you:

I’m a puzzle so I’m knock, knock, knocking on doors. Looking for you. Seeking you. Hoping to find you. I just want to be with you, near you, by you. You have what I need…Why can’t I find you. You ask me to seek the truth of who you are and you delight when I share the truth of who I am. When I find you …when I find you… I know things will be sweeter I will taste and it will be all good. My eyes will see things differently, my heart will feel things differently, my soul will know things deeply, my spirit will be joyful, and my mind will know.. There is so much in me that I want to share.. so much in me do I dare believe that there is more to me than I can really see. I’m a puzzle.. I’m looking for you so I can know who I was meant to be.. I need to solve this.. so I seek the pieces you hold of me. I’m crying inside cause no one knows me but you do…so I continue to seek so, I can know me too.